Here we go again! Tonight we were placed with two more little angels, a three year old little boy and his eighteen month old sister.
Over the past two months we have had many calls for placements, we have turned down a few but for the most part we have said yes and then the placement has fallen through for whatever reason. We were really upset after our first kiddos left and we had to think long and hard about what to do next. I was totally over foster, it is way too hard for me and I am just not strong enough to handle all of the emotion that goes with it. Eric was still willing to foster but I said, no way no how, we were only going to accept foster to adopt placements. Well, that lasted a couple of weeks before God reminded me who was in control. I realized that I had built walls around my heart in an attempt to protect myself from being hurt again. By doing that I was thinking only of myself. I was not thinking about the kids out there who need us and I wasn't thinking about how my husband felt either. I made a decision for all of us, and that was that. I was trying to take control instead of letting God lead me. The walls came down and we jumped in blind, we knew nothing about these kids, not even their names, until they got here tonight. This is a foster placement, we will not be adopting these kiddos. We know this up front, unlike last time where we were told over and over again that we probably would adopt them. I can't go too much into the family situation but their mother is very young, she loves her kids, she just does not have the support she needs to care for them right now. We don't know how long we will have these babies, we just hope to be a blessing not only to them but to their mother as well.
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
